Dream flying planes

Sue and Bob, a pair of tight wads, lived in the mid west, and had been married years.

Bob had always want to go flying. The desire deepen each time a barn stormer flew into town to offer rides.

Bob would ask, and Sue would say, "No way, ten dollars is ten dollars."

The years went pay, and Bob figured he didn't have much longer, so he got Sue out to the show, explaining, it's free to watch, let's at least watch.

And once he got there the feeling become real strong. Sue and Bob started an arguement.

The Pilot, between flights, overheard, listened to they problem, and said, "I'll tell you what, I'll take you up flying, and if you don't say a word the ride is on me, but if you back one sound, you pay ten dollars.

So off they flew. The Pilot doing as many rolls, and dives as he could.

Heading to the ground as fast as the plane could go, and pulling out of the dive at just the very last second. Not a word. Finally he admited defeat and went back the air port.

"I'm surprised, why didn't you say anything?"

"Well I almost said something when Sue fell out, but ten dollars is ten dollars."

Believing In Yourself

There may be days when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.
That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.
There are times when people disappoint you and let you down.
But those are the times when you must remind yourself
to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.

There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.

Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are.

So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be.
Because the challenges and changes will only help you
to find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.

questions!

why do I still shiver?
my heart beats faster.
sweat like a pig.
excited to be there.
nervous i might do something stupid.
or shout something lame.
'somebody' might hear it.
having cold feet,everytime!
finding difficult to face it.
why?
it's been so long and yet,
i still shiver.
i'm still excited about it.
why?


why can't you fix the water heater?
i can't do this every morning!!!!!

As I promised,I will not leave this space empty no more.
I will feed as many post as I can.
Tapi susah.
Susah cari masa.
It has to be stolen.
Bila da dicuri, idea pulak hilang.
Contohnya sekarang.

Maybe something about my simulator session.
Beginning soon.
Can't wait. Get all done and start my solo flying.
Being paid as I should be.
Stress hidup underpaid.
Tiap hari bangun terpaksa terima kenyataan yang aku masih di bawah bumbung yg sama 25thn yg lalu.
Should I be thankful for that?
Or should I feel bad for not having the power to change that fact yet?
InshaAllah by next year.
For once I want my birthday to be celebrated at a place I call my own.
And I will make sure that happens with 26 candles on my cake!
Adakah itu tone seorang yang kufur nikmat?
Atau tone seorang yang mahukan pembaharuan dalam hidup?
Someone answer that for me!

No strings attached

Like a puppet with strings. Or a dog with a leash. Could anyone imagine themselves being in that position? Well,hell yeah! But imagining it is painful enough. That's how far a relationship could lead to. Or shall I say commitment as it makes our balls shrink even more. When a decision is made and you know at some point you are not ready for such commitment, you will start to picture yourself as the puppet or the dog. Being all tied up, unwillingly. Controlled, attached and manipulated. And it has been that way for a very long period since the existence of time and space. But the funny part is more and more people are falling into this and believing that commitment is what they need. Although it's not their time yet. In other word, getting themselves into trouble. Getting tied up before they know they should be. Well, this may be a little perceptive to some who believe relationship could make us wiser and more mature and that's what grown ups do. But they keep proving themselves wrong. They got involve in a relationship and sure, they live a happy life for a moment and then comes the sucky part where plates start flying across the dining table, books thrown at each other and indeed that potrays the level of maturity a commitment would make out of you. And then they'll tell you that's just the ups and downs of a relationship. Couple fight and make out the next day. That's how it works. But is that reasonable?

It dawned upon me that commitment is just something we define in our own world to conclude the feelings we have for our partner or our life. It is undeniably true with what they say about growing mature out of a commmitment. But it is also about being responsible over matters. I'm not saying that commitment is bad and no one should ever get themselves involved in one. I'm saying that commitment is too wide a definition to be taken so lightly.

Being committed means being responsible over someone or something, that clearly suggests the requirement of an adequate amount of faith, trust and understanding. Fair enough. If you want to be responsible over someone, you have to really know the person you are being responsible for. But in most cases I believe this never existed. How could we possibly be in love and responsible for someone we hardly know? Second name, favorite color, or food, her family background and her nicknames don't count if that's the whole definition of knowing someone. It's what lies inside that matters. Do we really know them personally? Can you tell me what her reaction would be if you tell her that you quit your job today?How she sees both of you in the next 30 yrs?Or how she would like her birthday to be celebrated. If you can tell me exactly the way she would respond, that in the name of commitment, is true relationship. That'll show how much you know a person. You both will share almost everything. Emotionally too. You understand and know exactly what she wants and so does she. And if you start finishing each other's sentences that means you have gone over board and probably watched too much of romantic comedies.

It all boils down to one simple conclusion and it's the time factor. Whether or not we are ready for such a huge change in your lives. Being committed isn't something you decide over night and isn't something you can easily undo using Ctrl+Z. If you have found that someone or that little ktten you know fits that lonely house of yours perfectly well, think of them as responsibility you have to fulfill and not as just an object to fill that emptiness in your life. The sanctity and value of each relationship depends on how far you are willing to take it to. Don't ever let it be 'strings' nor 'leash' between you as they shouldn't be that feeling of being caught up because you know you are not.

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life is too short,
grudges are a waste of perfect happiness,
laugh when you can,
apologize when you should,
and let go of what you can't change,
love deeply and forgive quickly,
take chances,
give everything,
and have no regrets,
life is too short to be unhappy,
you have to take the good with the bad,
smile when you're sad,
love what you got,
and always remember what you had.
always forgive but never forget.
learn from your mistakes,
but never regret them.
holding on makes you strong,
but sometimes letting go makes you stronger.
people change and things go wrong.
but always remember,
life goes on.

the book that reminds me...

When I heard about it being made into a movie, I was excited for a moment. This great storybook reminds me of my dear friend, Muhammad Ariff. He passed away a year ago. In a plane crash. He introduced me to this book. We exchanged books alot. Luckily we both talk same language when it comes to genre of books. So when I heard about the story being made into a movie, I was very excited.

And suddenly I feel like writing again. Maybe because I heard about the movie and the book reminds me of my friend so much.And the last write up I posted was a year ago.....few days before Ariff flew his last flight.But this book is good enough for me to blog about it and you know I only blog about important things that you need to know about.

The book is The Time Traveler's Wife and it is by Audrey Niffenegger. Have you heard of it?

Apparently they are making this into a movie, which I suppose is a good thing. But it is the detail and complexity that makes this an exceptional story, and this will not come through in the movie. So the movie will just be the romance, without all the angst, the wonder, without all the fear.

OK, back to the novel. Henry DeTamble was born in 1963, and meets his eventual wife (the time traveler's wife), Clare Abshire, when he is 28 years old, in 1991. She is a few years younger. They got married and are very much in love until one of them eventually dies.

Sound kind of boring, I know, but wait, there's more.

He is of a modest background with two artist parents, and she is of a very wealthy background with a father who is a lawyer and a totally neurotic mother. Her family lives in Michigan, in a nice big house in a rural area.

I know,still doesn't sound very interesting. The interesting part is this:

Henry has an unusual disorder that causes him to occasionally travel in time. It is hard for him to predict when it will happen ... he cannot stop it or conjure it, though he learns that certain things make it less or more likely to happen. He feels a bit sick, dizzy, then suddenly he is somewhere else .... and, somwhen else. With nothing. No clothing, no possessions, only his wits.

Fortunately for Henry, many of these sorties into the twilight zone bring him to a quiet meadow in the woods just out of sight of the palatial Michigan home of this cute, smart, and very cool little girl named Clare. This is a meadow in which Clare likes to play alone. The first time the strange 30 or 40 something year old naked man appears out of nowhere in the meadow, she is young enough to not be totally put off. This allows a bit of a relationship to develop. Eventually, they fall in love (well, she falls in love with him, he is already married to her).

Because he travels around in time enough, and is a smart guy, he has figured out most (but not all) of the times he will arrive in the meadow. So Clare has a list of dates and times, and makes sure there is a stash of clothing, food, and drink for her mysterious crush-to-become-lover. The clothing is especially important in the dead of winter.

That's all very interesting, but it gets much more interesting than this. The story is further complicated by the fact that many, perhaps most, of Henry's forays in time are more unexpected and not prepared for in any way. Henry becomes well known to the Chicago police (he lives in, and often time travels to, Chicago) as a strange guy who likes to walk around in alleys with no clothing on. His co-workers in a Chicago atheneum known as The Newberry Library think of him as a strange guy who occasionally disappears (like for a long lunch or something?) but often leaves a pile of clothing behind. Henry learns to steal clothing form clothes lines, pick pockets, defend himself from attackers, break into any sort of locked building. He gets pretty good at this, and actually ends up teaching his young self (whom he occasionally visits) how to do these things.

So, you can see, the story can get quite complicated.

You know, not too far into the book if you are paying attention, that this is not going to end well. You wonder, what happens if these two have a child? You worry about the interactions among friends, coworkers, and especially relatives. There is a moment when you see what looks like something very bad happening to Henry in the future, but you can't be sure what it is. But you never have a sense that Clare and Henry are not going to stay married. That never seems in doubt. 'Till death do they part. Like the song goes: "To all things there is a season, time time time ..." But since Henry is a time traveler, you can imagine that nothing is so certain or simple as even death.

The story explores all the usual questions about time travel, but only briefly. There seems to be a sense of fate ... you can't change the present by messing with the past ... yet you can change what people know about the present (or future) a little. So the DeTamble family gets to skim a little off the stock market, but they don't alter world history. There is no butterfly effect in this book, only a vague sense that there is not much you can do to change the future, but you can make minor adjustments that will not have a large effect no matter what you do.

The suspension of disbelief is easy given the very high quality of the writing. I thought the ending was overcomplicated in the story telling considering how utterly simple the actual events are (compared to the rest of the book) but I sensed the writer wanted to tie up some threads.

I don't know why..but I have a feeling that if Ariff were to be here today...he will be just as excited as I am for the movie. And I really hope the movie will preserve the images of the characters I have created in my head.

If only I could travel to the past and untie that gloomy threads. Thanks Ariff for sharing this wonderful piece.